holy crap!

I forgot this blog existed. Or my old blog that's not actually attached to this one. I went through and read some, and noticed two things. First of all, I'm a witty guy! Or was. Second, extreme stark opposite attitude on life. In 2006 I was really alive. I was all about life. I was in college, had a good job, losing weight, hanging out with friends, involved in stuff. I was optimistic. World, here I come! .. except I didn't. Not yet. It's now the second half of 2010. If anything has changed, it's been downgrades. Was jobless in AZ, moved back to SD, had a job, now I don't again. Only real difference is this current jobless stint is due to being fired. I haven't made any progress mentally/physically/socially/spiritually in a long time.

The only good news is that at this exact second I feel more optimistic than I have in a long time. I just had a vision of the "good ol' days." I lived my daily life a lot different, and it was better. I need to work toward that again. I'm 26 years old, which feels old to me, but realistically I have plenty of time to make something of my life. One positive step is blogging itself. It really helps me keep track of whats going on in my head. I'm going to try using this thing again. Maybe it'll be a step in the right direction. My life is nowhere near what I want it to be, but a lot of the things I hate are easy to fix. Let's see what happens.